neglecting this for a while
Elli will be 2 years old this month.
thinking of another babe for next year if it all goes well.
I wish this process was over! I feel my ulcer getting bigger over this.
The future is not guaranteed but just thinking about it makes me cringe!
I need embrace.
I’m excited for this.
I always feel left out.
I miss my mommy. :( hopefully she’ll come home soon.
This new update on tumblr.
So my daughter is almost 14 months aka she’s one. And have fully stopped nursing her. YAY me!! She’s been off breast for a week now and she’s doing ok. There are days like today where she pulls down on my shirt and cries but others were she goes and searches for a bottles. We chose to give her soy milk. She loves it more than cows milk. I only gave her cows milk once as she spit it out every time I tried giving it to her. We opt out of cows milk a long time ago but I wanted to see if she’d take it. Gladly she didn’t.
Now all I’m waiting is for my Boobies to dry up. Hehehe. Tmi? They will never be the same :( after my next kid I will get my boobies done if they aren’t pretty. Haha
A few days ago elli fell down the stairs. Worst thing I have ever seen. My baby! I felt awful. Still do. Im like punishing myself because I keep reliving it. :( but she’s ok. I wonder if she’s in any pain. I hate not being able to tell. And I hate myself for not putting a gate up.